Our Loss

I debated on whether or not to put this on here, but then I decided it might be good for me to write it down, and this will be a good thing for me to keep.

Yesterday we lost our baby. I had been spotting off and on since I was 13 weeks. It wasn't ever very much. On the 24th it got worse, so I called my midwife and she wanted me to come into the hospital and have an ultrasound done. When the tech was doing it, I knew something was wrong, because I couldn't see the baby moving on the screen. The tech wouldn't tell us anything. The midwife then told us that we lost our baby and our baby stopped growing a little after 12 weeks. I was 16 weeks 3 days at that time. She said we could stay and have the baby then, come in the next morning and have the baby, or wait for it to go naturally at home. We opted to have the baby the next morning. We came home and Jake was great and went and got us some ice cream. While he was gone, he was thinking what he would want if this were happening to him and he thought food, so he went to get some chicken at KFC, but they were closed, so we went and got some hamburgers and fries. He also got me some chocolate. We were nervous, because we didn't know what to expect. No one really talks about what happens with miscarriages. We thought that the next day was going to be an awful day.

The next morning we got ready, took Tean to Jake's parent's house for the day, and went up to the hospital. A little side note. When I met our nurse she looked really familiar, and her voice sounded very familiar. I mentioned it to Jake and was trying to remember from what. I then remembered from what. She looked and sounded just like the lady on this prenatal yoga video that I had. When she came back Jake told her that I thought she looked famous. She just said, that she wasn't. I told her that she looked like a lady on a yoga video that I had. She said that it was her on it! Crazy! Anyway, they put some pills in me to start labor and we just waited. About 4 hours later, the midwife came back to put some more pills in me and I asked for some pain medicine. Before they put the pills in me, my water broke and the baby came right away. I got some pain medication and slept off and on for a bit. I wasn't sure if I wanted to see the baby, but after the baby was born, Jake and I decided it would be a good idea, so we saw the baby. It was a little boy. They had a nurse there who specializes in grief, and she came and talked to us and told us what she would do with the baby. We were given the option of burying the baby, which would cost us a lot, have a mortuary in town cremate the baby (they did this service for us for free), or we could have the hospital cremate the baby with anything else they were burning that day. We opted for the mortuary and they told us they would let us know if there were any remains and they had little lockets that we could put the ashes in. The nurse took the baby, took pictures of the baby, measured and weighed him, and put him in a little gown, wrapped him in a blanket and brought him back so we could hold him. We were given the gown he was put in, his blanket, a stuffed animal, a ring, the pictures and a box to put them all in. I will not put the pictures they gave us of our baby, but if you would like to see them, we are willing to show them to you, just ask us. I know anyone can read this and I don't want to share them with the whole world. We were also given a card with his birth weight and length and his little foot prints on it. He was 3 inches and weighed 14 grams. We were encouraged to name him, so we named him Nephi Chandler. Having all that really made the experience a lot better than expected. It turned out that it wasn't an awful experience. Our midwife and nurses made it as positive an experience as could be expected in the situation given. Today I feel surprisingly well.

We are very sad about this loss. We thank everyone for their well wishes and prayers given in our behalf and everything everyone has done for us. We are doing good. I know I will still get emotional at times, but I am thankful for the gospel and the comfort it gives us in our lives. We are glad that we have Tean. He is a joy in our lives and makes us laugh. We look forward to having more children when the time comes.

24th of July

For the 24th of July, we went to the parade they had here in Pocatello and then we went to the activities at the fairgrounds. I think Tean's favorite part of the parade was the candy. Here's Tean, trying to find some candy. He found some! He had so much of it! He enjoyed looking at the cars too. This was cool. The remote control car was pulling this little wagon. This was my favorite float. Captain Moroni with soldiers today with the Title of Liberty on the back of the float. I also enjoyed this one of Jonah and the Whale.

After the parade, we headed to the activities at the fairgrounds. I took Tean down the bouncy slide. He was nervous at first, but I think that he really enjoyed it. Tean also loved playing with the goats. He moo-ed at them and also barked at them. It was pretty funny. His favorite part of the whole thing, though, was being able to push his stroller around. He pushed it back and forth in the grass and had a great time doing so! He was mad when we put him back in to go home.

Cool Dude!

Quiet Book

3 years ago, when we lived in Boise, I started working on a quiet book. This past week, I finally finished it! There is one more page that I did, but for some reason it didn't show up on my camera.

Jake's Foot

When we went to Bear Lake, Jake went out on some waverunners. He put sunscreen everywhere but on the tops of his feet. He got burnt really bad. On Monday, we went up to his parents for a barbeque. Since we would be outside, he thought he should put some shoes and socks on. When he came home and took his sock off, half of the skin on the top of his foot came off. It hurt him really bad. He is just barely able to wobble around ok now. It still hurts him a lot. Here is a picture of his foot about a week after it happened.

Moon Family Reunion

We went up to Bear Lake this past weekend for the annual Moon family campout. We had a great time! On Thursday, we went to the pool they have up there. I put Tean in there, but it was too cold for him. He hated it, but had a great time just playing around the pool. That night we went to a park close by and had family home evening. There were balloons there and Tean loved playing with them. We also did sparklers and Tean thought they were pretty neat, but didn't want to hold one.
On Friday, we went to the beach. It was SO windy! Jake rode the jet skis and said it was the most fun he has ever had on jet skis because the waves were so big. Tean didn't want to go in the water, but had a great time walking around the beach and looking at the seagulls and quacking at them. While there, Tean was standing on his little camp chair, and I was getting ready to get him off, when he tipped over and bonked his head. He got a huge goose egg on his head. I was surprised how fast it showed up. Here are all the grandkids that were up there minus Sheldon's kids (they had left already).
On Saturday, we went to Bloomington Lake and hiked up to the lake. Jake jumped into the lake. There was still snow around the lake. A few people swung on the rope and came back without jumping off. Rett did that once and on his second time out, his feet hit the water and then he fell in! It was crazy. We had a fun time, but didn't stay long because it was pretty cold outside.